Feeling a little better.

Feeling a little better. I'm not crying anymore, and I forced myself to get up and doing things. I'm trying to keep myself busy but it's not really working... Struggling today, I really am. I just... yeah. Not doing brilliantly.

Fake smile, you're such a good friend, you're always there when I need you. No point making everybody else feel shit too, right? If I just smile and get on with it, then everybody can get on with their lifes, and not have to worry about mine. Making people worry and stress about me just makes me feel worse... I'll just smile and help everybody else in hopes it will shut my own brain up for a second or two.

Things are... fuzzy inside. I can't focus as easily on some alters. I don't know why; it's worrying. It feels almost like they're intergrating but I don't think they are. It's almost like they're doing the opposite of appearing... =\ sigh.
I need a job. I need money. Without money I can't do anything.

And where the hell are my tweezers?!
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