Thursday

Last night I suffered nightmares again and woke up smelling Him in the room, so I just ended up sleeping on the floor.
Today, I went out with some friends, hung around and chilled out in the sun. My friend fell asleep on me and I felt really safe and comfy. It was all going well until some guy I've only met twice found it hilarious to pin me to the ground by my wrists and straddle me. Long story short, I pushed him off me, Laura swore at him as I stopped her hitting him, and I spent half an hour trying to calm down.

I'm starting to think we need to intergrate somebody, but every time we do more and more come along and intergrating an alter is a huge drain on me, it's emotionally hard. With luck though, we'll figure something out.

That's about it for today.

SI: No, but struggled with thoughts
Eaten: Yes, half a baguette and a bowl of pasta
Purged: No, but struggled with thoughts

I'll start posting up this as a recovery thing, because I know alot of you who read my blog are worried about my eating habits... or lack of.


Kait.

Enough

I've decided to stop posting random thoughts and feelings at this blog, it makes me feel very vulnerable and unsafe. None of us are particularly happy about anybody being able to read this and learn anything they want from my life.
With more and more people being linked to my blog, I think it's time for a fresh start on here. Understand that I'm not linking people to my posts, just the DID pages. More and more people are finding out about us, so we've deleted a handful of recent posts and will now be posting in a more orderly manner! There will be nearly no ranting here, so I think that would help.
Last night I mentioned to Miste about how I feel so unsafe posting on my blog, and she provided a solution. There is another blog but obviously I won't be linking it to nearly anyone, and definately not here.
So quick overview of things going on with me:
17 years old.
Best friend in the whole world is Miste, who is also recently my ex. 
I'm in college, studying IT (Game and software development)
I'm a recover(ed/ing) self harmer, though I still struggle with urges.
I'm a victim of rape and sexual abuse on numerous occasions.
I have Dissociative Identity Disorder
I'm transexual, which means I feel like a girl in a guys body.
I have borderline anorexia and recover(ed/ing) bulimia.

So there you are, that's to all new people who might read my blog. There's the pages at the top explaining DID to people and my alters. I plan to add things in to explain the rest of the things wrong with me too.
With luck, we'll post daily, though I doubt that'll happen...

Fresh start, enjoy!
Kaitlyn (Kyle/Kitsu/Batman/Batgirl, to all you people who don't know my preferred name!)