What social life?

Yeah, see the thing is, it's kinda disappeared.
I used to go up to Birmingham about once a week to chat to various people, only I want to avoid most of them. There are say... one or two people who I regret losing contact with, but the rest can go fuck themselves. The majority of the people I know I wouldn't trust as far as I can throw...

I regret losing contact with Bandi/Vicky, but then we always lose touch and get chat again then lose touch and chat again, been like that for years but she's an amazing friend. One of the truly nice people I know.
I vaguely miss losing touch with Ruth too..
I miss Wolfie/Amy. Alice does too apparently. They chatted some earlier. Wolfie's also always been kind and supportive and understanding of me, also one of the really nice people. We've been through some together...
I miss chatting to Chris, I've known him for going on 8 years now. Hell, he was my friend through the abuse. I never told him, I was too scared, but he was always pretty cool, though was, and still is immature and annoying as hell, but we had fun together.

Yup. That's about it. I'm just so scared of... well. People. But more than that, I don't even know how I'd get back in touch with anyone. I do, but i'm scared. What do I say? Sorry I've been blanking you for the past year, lets go have a coffee or something? ... Yeah something along those lines I think actually. I think I'll talk to Amy first, she's the easier to talk to. I'm so scared though... but it's something I have to do, and something I'm determined to do alone. No alters, no Jen. I have to face this or I'll end up hermit... with Jen. If I could just... make myself do it... I will though, when I have time.

I'd like to see Miste again sometime too, I feel so wretched for barely talking to her for months. We were ever so close, and now... meh. She's never hurt me, never done or said a bad thing against me, she's always been good to me and I've just... not spoken to her for ages...

Anyway! Apparently I have to go talk to Amy now. Scared. I'm sure it'll be fine... bleh.